Got It?

"I certainly have not the talent which some people possess, of conversing easily with those I have never see before. I cannot catch their tone of conversation, or appear interested in their concerns, as I often see done."

Back Home.

Just when I thought I could throw in my project submission yesterday and then I can worry no more.

I walked in the studio and find that the whole cohort was upstairs, apparently the lecturer's were to announce something so important.

Really, I didn't know datelines were flexible. They say its for this project only, and then no more, because they see potential in other class' unfinished work. Thus, dateline for documentation - extended.

Can't they fixed the initial dateline as 25th August? From 19th, then 20th, then 25th?

We finished in time, but not the others?



?



They say life's not fair. Uh-huh.


I have one less to worry about, model's in (at least), but not the rest of it.
So much for my sacrifice to not return Home last week.


No matter what, I had promised myself on Thursday to get 2 movies from Michael's HDD for the weekend. Putting submission's expandable dateline aside, I HAD to get some entertainment after 3 weeks of no CCA, 13-hour studio life.

Wildchild, and the Curious Case of Benjamin Button for starters.
Couldn't believe it that I had watched two movies a night and flunked my B:2 piece this morning.
Anyway, I couldn't last anymore longer on the keys so I'd take it slow, chewing guava and watching 2 movies at one go.

Wildchild was one light hearted, hilarious one, displaying the cultural difference between the Americans and the English. The boarding school was very handsome indeed, and I certainly think that the grass is greener on the other side - because it literally is greener! :D

It was still 9pm so I had to play the other movie. Haha!
I was curious to know how one person can be born into this world "old" and die of old age when one is physically young, when the crowd was talking about this movie.
I had no idea. I wanted to watch this even though Cal said it was slow and boring.

Slow and boring for some, as people goes around talking more about Transformers 3 and G.I. Joe a hundred times more than some narrative storytelling of Hollywood.

The time setting itself was a long one, having to tell the tale of one's whole lifetime - which lasted almost 3 hours on the big screen. Living backwards was a very interesting thing indeed, seeing how many people around you age old and die, while you grow younger everyday, uncertain about what you are about to be when you 'become a toddler again'. I realised how one's life is like a bell curve- when you're young or old, you'll need some form of assistance to buckle your shoe, put on a neck tie, or going around town. It's so similar that these two age group of people can clique well. It's only the time you have in between those two periods that you can do whatever you want, on your own. Well, the parts where Daisy's and Benjamin's physical age were far apart were the most interesting- how an old man and a little girl would read and tell stories to each other, enjoying each others company; how an old lady would 'take care of her baby husband' who has dementia and doesn't recognize her anymore.

Daisy: Would you still love me if I were old and saggy?
Benjamin Button: Would you still love ME if I were young and had acne? When I'm afraid of what's under the bed? Or if I end up wetting the bed?

Somehow, its a time-machine like movie (like Secret and The Lakehouse), which is only much easier to comprehend.
I was truly amazed at the make-up artist's job and the computer generated 'phases of human faces' they used to created the different looks of the actors at different ages. It was flawless, I could say, it looked all so realistic as if Brad Pitt would look something like that in his later ages!

Dad was telling me, how CAD was in his days- he would draw a line on the workstation and wait 5 seconds for the line to appear complete on the computer screen. Technology's growth is an exponential one; if you measure it, I guess it probably grows faster than human population.

Hmm.


I've been thinking.
So far in 18 years, how many lives have I influenced or get acquainted with?





"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again. "

The Third Tragic Lost.

Lost,

I despise you.



Why must Insecurity follow a Lost?

Fat Malaysians.

I was observing. First things first.

People walk in and out Singapore like Ants.
Ants just reminded me how Johann Liebert toyed with a line of Ants.


Wait. How come the buses in Singapore starts off/accelerates so jerkily?
Like excessive power, or rather the bus driver stepped on too hard on the accelerator (all buses the same anyway), or maybe, the engine is a powerful one- but it simply jerks too hard during acceleration- Exactly like a Vios.
They use auto bus engines, not driven manually. They don't have proper first gear, second gear etc.
Bad engine architecture.

And I realized manual cars- especially Kancil, is the easiest to drive and to start off with. Although more to learn, but it doesn't jerk forward. Smooth transition from the first gear to the second one and so on.

Oh, actually it does, only if you're terrible on the clutch. Or simply didn't get into the correct gear at the correct speed.. Simply means a bad driver la.

I think I have forgotten how to drive.
aiks.


Heck MRT fare really cost a bomb. =(
(And it isn't even my favorite conventional sight-seeing train!)

$12.65 of my flag day collection at Punggol is definitely not worth my travel fees. BOO

Did I just said I collected $12.65? ahahahaha. Slackest flag day ever. I felt guilty afterwards actuallyXD But what to do? Punggol is deserted. Low population. LoL. And, well, because these people have no one else to compete with, or no seniors patrolling town etc. unlike bloody St John days when we would do 12 hours a day for 2 weeks inhaling fumes and collecting international currency from the customs and immigrations. I wonder how will it go this year since everyone is using touch-n-go's? =P

I remember last year's/also my last year in sec school's flag day- very vividly.

The Incredible Drama.

Principal might just utter this: No flag day for you girls. X(


Also, I remember two years ago, when our St John president proudly walked up the stage shaking hands with the past-principal Puan Mary, receiving the tallest trophy ever.
(And Yi Th'ng wanted her 'Moment of Glory' like that tooXD. But what to do. What to do. Too much drama.)





But I'm slowly getting back, getting less lazier, getting into a better mood, waking up before 7am everyday, walking 20 times more than usual, you get it- I officially ended my post-SPM-Rotting-at-Home-days.

:/


I don't like Mr. Wrecks.
He's scary.

1 Litre of Tears.

It rains.

I'm in the midst of watching the Japanese series, 1 Litre of Tears.
(Literally, audiences can really shed a litre of tears =S)
Wondering, how can one normal, contented teenager of 15 can be so strong facing a disease that will disable one's body of its mobility bit by bit, and eventually cause death in about a decade's time? Sleep, and never wake up.

Most will be angry with fate. Teenagers.

"There's only so much a doctor can do. Limitations."

I am thankful. Grateful. Everything.

Wong's family dog returned home after nearly 4 years. I was there when the hainanese dog jolted and dashed out of the house due to the loud thunderstorm. I was there when the children were reunited with their Buddy. Now Buddy's a street smart dog. =D
That's definitely something to cheer. *hopes that Russ returns too =I*


Playing: Mozart's Requiem.

Rain predicts what news I am about to receive.
I said it was a Bore. The same old damn feeling.
That's why I despised the school.
Seniors were the greatest heroes of the school, perhaps.
The History creators. The History demolishers.
The Spartan Hard Work, but The Champions.
A little glimpse of hope, and a few buckets full of wasted emotions.

Wasted.

Wasted.

Wasted.


I skipped my entire youth for this. Now I can't help but feel disgusted.
3 years has passed. 4 Experiences.
Dad was right, I have no more business in school, why should I still place anxieties there?
Mum was right, I wasn't competing anymore, why should I bother to take care of uniform business?
Hui Yen was right. I didn't have to attend another funeral.
Hey, why should we still stab ourselves?

Talk is useless. They don't Care. They don't Cry.

What is Sorry?
Why has it become a little word that slips out so easily?


This town is Agonizing.



Quick. Where's the damn escape route?

I think-

that I've found a decent job.

that there's a racing car engine in my room.

that I'll miss out my chance on PKTR 09.

that I've become less interested in everything.

that the pillow and blanket became my boyfriend(s).

that the piano became my punching bag.

that internet speed in JB is totally-shitty lag.

that being stuck in JB alone is frustrating and agonizing.

that I don't miss the past.

that I'm looking forward very much.

SPM, shame.

One day my iconoclastic friend said, I wonder why more and more people get straight A's for UPSR, when she heard that the school next door was one of the top school in Malaysia with a large percentage of students score straight A's.

So what, people are evolving into smarter creatures, or the exam standards getting lower?

As far as I am concerned, students and parents are doing things the easy way to get good grades.

Tips.

Mehh.

As if the Akta Pencegahan Rasuah isn't enough to keep the policemen clean, and the rakyat to stop doing things the easy way out, the school kids are doing it, everywhere. 

This seriously shames the nation. Living on the 'easy way out'. Have we caught the common cold. Kais pagi makan pagi kais petang makan petang. Living from day to day. What an infamous phrase.

Like paying the indian man who came to my school the other day to give some prediction on what is coming out for biology. I thought he was gonna teach some really good stuff, but Puan Doreen said it was nothing, really. Cheap advice which I have already practiced based on my common sense.

Hitting this website yesterday really made my blood boil:

And then tipping Andrew Choo 80 bucks for a book of tips on SPM subjects so that he can beat what 2009 record of selling the most tips in Malaysia? Oh. Give me a break.

"Andrew Choo advices students to study hard. And DO NOT believe in leakage of paper. Good luck everyone!"

That guy and his money making friends are paradoxical.

"Even School Teachers' are using our tips!"

Oh wow. What's this. Lazy teachers in Malaysia only wanna teach the stuff that's coming out so that they can compete among themselves, who has the most straight A students, is that so?

These money face people try to burn holes in your pocket.

Why pay 80 bucks for his prediction? Because it is 80% tepat?

And the price is going up by 10. Because it is said to be very welcomed by students and parents and school teachers.

So next year its 90% accurate, I guess? 

Filthy rich/moderate/think they have too much money to toss=Lazy people.

Oh, so people involved in Malaysian government exams do this.

No wonder not many people have the joy of learning.

All they want is another extra A.

If she has takes 12 subs, I must take 13.

There goes the chain reaction.

Why can't these teachers be nice and just kindly tell/teach students what they predict without extra charges? $_$

Can't blame them, its purely human nature to want more, more of everything.

This system is going to bring a disaster.

I admit having circulating tips in my phone. But I never used them.

Why study for those few topics rather than the whole book? All to get that A in the stupid exam.

I don't think exams are a stupid thing, but people make them.

For me I think that exams are for assessing one's ability in understanding topics. 

NOT FOR GETTING THAT FAT A TO SHOW OFF>.> "Oh SEE I'M 24A1 student and CAN'T SPEAK DECENT ENGLISH"

I'm not jealous of people that possess tips or the money to get them.

Tired of the way people say 'Malaysia is too exam orientated' but still all these for an A.

Getting an A then would be kacang/peanuts for those who only concentrated on those few topics?

People in rural areas are stupider just because they don't have tips/handphones used to circulate them?

No, the nearer you are to the city the stupider you get.

And then Cold Sweat for those who rely on tips when something unexpected comes out.

They did not memorize it=/

And if they rely on tips 80%, I say 80% they won't survive university - I'm referring to better ones. Not the easy First Class Honours Degrees.

No problem for those who are innovative+smart+hardworking.

I can conclude that only people who are too kiasu (scared to lose out) but want do things the easy way out, do inhuman things. Boo.

This matter is seriously polluting the country's image.

Ah. I saw one Andrew Choo book in my school the other day. Left outside the toilet shelf. Hmmph. Wonder who left it there.

Finishing this thing in.. umm. 3 days.

Mind you,

I learn for the sake of lifelong learning.

Vote vote.

Vote for America's First Pooch. Click here.

Puppy Polls. =)

Animal Planet.

Bored.XD

Form 5 was terribly boring for me. (I KNEW IT WAS GONNA BE>.>)

I didn't like it.

Except for little thrills people give me.

And I lock myself up in the room pretending to be studying (the same things over and over and over again so that I can remember the exact word and phrase to put down on the exam papers=/?) but actually sleeping/watching YouTube with headphones on/staring into space.

You can vote me as the coolest SPM candidate but I'm worried for myself. heh. Whether I'll get in the next level of study. Serah has the right to read manga's all night because she has a confirmed place in a good JC but not meXXD

SPM sciences and Sejarah Malaysia Yang Ada Tak Betul Sikit>.> was interesting to read, not interesting to memorize.

Maths subjects were good to keep my brain working.

but DANGGG IT WAS HARD>.>

5 more days. RAAHAHAHAH.

Deceptive.

Busy Friday Afternoon.
But I am tired. My headaches.


Once a monkey, forever a monkey.

Nay, I don't believe in Darwin's Theory. Humans do not originate from the apes and monkeys.



Humans are Rational. Mostly.

High School was not-so-sweet as I expected it to be when I was 11.
But I love the good people I've been with. Love them, really.
They have good brains and good souls.

I wonder a lot, why must I deal with interestingly useless characters.
It still remains an unsolved mystery, though.




Bio was a whack. Screw Bio lah. Too complicated for men to comprehend. lol.
My people have many interesting opinions on it. Teacher took it as a joke though. Very Interesting.



No National Service for me, I guess, if the SMS told me the right thing.
Thank God.
I didn't mind participating in it, really. Its still some kind of "Life Time Experience".
But then again, I have many plans for the year end holidays, until I start college that is.


something struck me about that wooden Luther Gun on my desk.
read some news about Russia and Georgia and some tears streamed down my cheeks. War.
I always thought that guns were cool. I bet many do.
"YEAH I PLAYED WITH M-16 BEFORE IT WAS DAMN COOL." I wish I had the chance to.
Then again, what are guns used and made for anyway?




Happy Birthday Timmy.



And No school for Next week. Yeah.

Losers.

I'm the failure
I'm everyone's fool
And I'm losing my cool at the end

I'm the loser
My numbers come up
I've been hung up with thoughts of Revenge
Revenge
Revenge

I've been watching you with my terminal view
As you struggle to rise to your end
I laughed hard at the insults we through
As the weight of the world found revenge
Revenge
Revenge

Umm. =/


Time has changed the People we've been with. So much. Too much for us to handle, eh.

And we're at that transition period where things change in a blink of an eye, dear friends.

Dear Collegues.

Dear Teammates.

We listened.
They Don't.

Its been quite sometime since I had that

"-------- *really terrible feeling* ------- AAARRGGHHHHH. FRUSTRATED. DISSAPOINTED + an extremely huge amount of Adrenaline flowing in my arteries."

Kind of mood and then proceeding to hit someone nearby.


In my high school probably on Two and a Half people get the Exactly same feeling.

We probably get that bad mood pretty often. But never, ever did anything irrational whenever it comes to that point. There was no Nuclear Launch. All that big energy produced has always been stored inside and then decayed. One would cry to herself. One would speak something that only we thought, was the whole truth. One would listen and agree in silence, listening to soft sobs.




It's your life.

No one ever said life was fair, right?

What you want and what you get are 2 entirely different things.

***

You're Bankrupt when you've got nothing to lose, right?

"One day when I am married with little kids, I shall read this post again and review my high school life, evaluating every single soul I met."

Scribbles.

(click to enlarge)

Chemistry first thing in the morning. What could be worse. I was caught talking to Jassine on my left about animes and mangas. Mrs. Elizabeth said I had a couldn't care less face. But that's the look on my face when I'm sleepy. Adeline on my right told me about the TV show Brainiacs she watched about interesting science stuff. Like when you tuck your middle and ring finger under your flat palm rested on the table, standing up, you won't be able to remove it out from under your palm. So we tested. Every now and then I stood up to test her fact, of course when Elizabeth was writing on the board. Or else she would have find it annoying for me to keep standing up at an interval of a minute during a period of time. Adeline also told me I should watch Minamike and Azumanga Daioh. And then I started Scribbling on a piece of unwanted school letter. Yawns. I still can't really hear Elizabeth's voice. I depend 95% on Mr. Lim to score a minimum A2 the last exam. heh.


Went for the education fair in the hall. I went there to get freebies actually. Along with Mercy, Yap, met Cal and Pehyee. Wonder what God has installed for me in the future. Fortune telling don't give you correct answers. I believe that they're all made up to earn your big bucks.


Nicholas Sparks' life is pretty interesting. With thousands of happening. But no doubt he is a hardworking and strong fella. Salutes!


Catching some sleep before second last AGM of Sec School tomorrow. Nights.

I'm Labeled as a Malaysian in Cyberspace.

There. The irony of living in Malaysia.

VEOH HAS BANNED US.
(and I thought it was a total joke at first)

What's the point? Huh?

Apparently they have a 'low concentration' of Malaysian viewers on Veoh.

Now I have to say that Veoh is a very efficient video streaming website.
You can find a lot of good quality(big files, but fast streaming) and 'youtube deleted' videos there.

Like Anime and stuff.

I downloaded a few complete series from there also.

Sigh.

If only I knew how to use a fake Proxy address telling the cyberworld 'ain't from malaysia, I'm from the states(yea, free walmart soundcheck tracks).' lol.
Nay, I'm not so bad though.

Just that sometimes we have deficiency of a little this and that, Here.

It's a good thing I won't have to do my tertiary education here after all.
Half a year more, and then VEOH HERE I COME AHAHAHAH





____________________________________________________________________


Finished Spiral: Bonds of Reasoning.
It was cool. Children have great abilities.
Brilliant minds. And the corrupted world.
Need some brains to watch this.




Random Old Chinese translated Manga I picked up for RM4.50.
Looks like another music one, besides, Nodame Cantabile and La Corda D'oro.
Fairly Interesting. It's new. Not found anywhere online, yet.
Got kinda 'looked down' by some friends "You can read this meh."
(Yes I can. Just that it takes 3 times longer than the time I take to read an English one. Pardon me.)




And Some easy baking I did. Bored.
It wasn't as nice as those you see in pictures.
But mine is a Chocolate Chunk Brownie with White Chocolate Toping. Solid.




Countdown: 5 Days Left.

Could have done much, much More.

2 Goofy footers and a Natural footer. Well, surfing in our little lagoon in Sunway.

Heck it looks so fun to ride the waves.
But yeah, its pretty impossible to do some decent surfing in Malaysia.
In the first place the Sunway wave pool was opened early in the morning so that those guys from Switchfoot could do something from 'home' over here.



Sometimes I just feel like a fat lump.

I'm not skilled in any sports related activity although I really, really wished I was XD
Hahah. I could do Marching though. lol. In a Squad of 4. Although we had a nutcase, but we managed to be the National No.1 Marching Squad, yeah well in my uniform body, you know. lol. Don't play play.

There's really a number of things I would have wanted to learn but didn't have the opportunity to, or simply wasn't 'exposed' to it that interest me when I was younger.

How old am I now? 17. High school ends this year. It's like in a blink of an eye.
But yet in that split second I get the feeling that many things had happened.
Just not enough for me to enjoy it. lol.
I'd expected high school to be something like what we see in moviesXD

Malaysia. How similar can it get to when compared to those school life movies we watch, when it comes to Government education, huh?

PSD rejected a 10A1 girl a few days ago. LOL man LOL.
Ridiculous.
When my mum first read it to me I thought Malaysia was over populated with smart asses that I'm pretty left behind the others.
Everyone is getting 10A1's and above, more and more each year.
Now that the matter that it was published in th STAR newspaper, its pretty certain that the girl will get what she wants after all, they will do that to clear the people's bad image of the PSD.

yada yada yakyakyak. The people will continue talking. I shall stop right there.


These are the things I would like to learn, so far for now,

Tennis
Took it up before with a coach and 2 friends. We were just playing around with 100 worn out tennis balls at 8pm every Tuesday that time, when we were in lower secondary. Now I regret like- grrah. Shouldn't have wasted 20 bucks everynight to play with a racquet and ball. Since there's a coach there, should have tried harder=/
Then I would have a 'favorite; game to play as my hobby, you see.
Roger Federer. Pretty cool guy huh. Super Skilled. heh.

Probably ready to hit a pretty slice in that yellow ball.

If I had lived in a sandy beach state, I would have take up surfing.
It must have feel really good cruising the waves, almost like flyingXD
But sadly, the beach nearby in my town is that filthly Lido beach. Couples that chose to, date there throw their cigarette buds all over the shore. Yuck.

Piano
Yar. Another thing I wasn't serious about when I was younger.
I don't know. I became angry at the rebellious age and went for an electric guitar.

The instrument that produces all kinds of cosmic sounds, loud too.
But for one thing I must compliment, the physics of it is rather interesting. Especially those skilled fellas (the long hair ones, head bangers-mostly) makes use of the entire thing. How they produce very high frequency 'harmonics' yes that's it. Harmonics. Go read about how the string vibrates in a different way.
Anyway, classical is evergreen.

and maybe, Trumpet? =)
I can only play C major songs.
Because that's the only Key the foon yew 3 marching band plays in. lol.
I really miss that time.
We practiced on the tar road where the bus parks in front of the hall.
Brings back good memories.
That was once I played music in a group, and I enjoyed.
heh probably my lucky trumpet made me better than the rest. Not to brag about it. I don't play well. Only played what you would call a good basic. It was a Jupiter Gold Trumpet.
That instrument family always brings out the majestic-ness in a grand piece when played in an orchestra. You know the feeling, Grand.


Chess.
Somehow I feel left out in this world.
Everytime there's the interclass chess competition I can straight away reject the offer to represent my class. lol.
I know the basic rules.
I just don't play.
Probably because I'm the only child, which leaves no one at home available to play chess with me.
If I play, I play the hotseat. Which cost double the brain usage.
Does it somehow reminds you of L from death note? lol. Its hard. Playing Hotseat. Really.
I have a junior who plays chess really well. Maybe should get some lessons from her lol.
But for her to beat me flat, that's kind of embarrassing. lol. But I bet she can easily beat me flat, though.XD


Japanese Language.
You probably can guess why one want to learn Japanese.
So you can understand 80% of what the characters are talking about in an un-subbed or Raw Anime Episode, eh.
And its always cool to have an understanding of another language other than your mother tongue and Bahasa Melayu, and English, am I not right>.< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">SIGS does offer Jap classes for the student as an extra subject. Hmm. That's kinda cool.

And then if I can get private lessons, maybe I could even learn some dancing, modern/ballroom, anything (you know, someone who can't dance would really get a hard time out there getting laugh at) I know I'm not in for dancing, but it does seem fun. Really fun. These dancing people did it from young. My muscles don't flex like them. Its different.

Even Ice Skating maybe. If I had started young, I would have been a fair figure skater by nowXD All I can do in the rink is only being able to skate forwards. Figure skating is a beautiful one. Gliding on the ice, dance-skating to music. Falls into the same category as surfing. How many skating rinks do we have around. One in Singapore, one in KL. KL is definitely impossible to make it a hobby. Singapore too. Not like I can go in to Singapore every few times a week. And figure skating, its something like ballet. Sometimes your body just don't meet the physical needs when you're older when you start learning it. Only that figure skating is cooler than balletXD Speed skating looks massively fun as wellXD
Just watch the upcoming Olympics and you'll get what I'm saying.



BUT as one says, you'll never stop learning until the day you die. It isn't impossible to take up some new skills along the way=D

What's Wrong, People?!

Ugh, so this is another rant of mine.

What in the world is wrong with my country's citizens?

Today it's on - Service.

I raced down the slope of my school because I spotted a public bus from afar.
And I was certainly in time for the bus.

I raise up my hand, signaling to get on the bus.

And yeah, the bus driver looked at me, and I looked at him, he gave a curt smirk and didn't bother to stop.

I was ... astounded.

Then after a car and a lorry follow passed, and there, came another bus!

I was absolutely sure I could get on this one.

Instead, the exact same thing happened - as like the first bus.

Am I a death god or whatever that these bus drivers won't let me get on their bus.

And then 2 guys sitting at the back of the lorry in front said : " TAK DAPAT BUS JALAN LA HAHAHAhAH...."

If I had a death note I would have killed them all, The two bus drivers and the two idiotic guys sitting in the lorry.
Yeah. Don't worry folks, I'm not Light Yagami, I will not succumb to something like that. It's bad, I know.

There was once when I took a bus home, and when it was the next stop I pressed the bell.
No sound. Then I press another. I thought it rang softly, only to the bus driver, but the truth was that it never rang.
And I when I told the bus driver I wanted to get down, "TEKAN LA ITU LOCENG HEEEEYEER"
I said, "tak bunyi la encik, saya cuba two tiga kali pun....."
I was interrupted, "HEYEEEEERR"

That's it. I flew down the bus, pissed.

Maybe I should follow Fann's style, hopping onto the bus without paying a cent.
heh.

Terrible Service we have here. Not all, but 90%.
There was only this once where Yith'ng and I boarded a bus after training from school. It was a nice 50 year old chinese uncle.
Surprisingly, to my house, it was only 60 cents, he charged us. He said we were students.
Then we stopped at City Square for awhile, like they always do.
And he ask Yithng to get him a drink from the shop across the road.
He gave her RM5, saying, go get a drink for yourself as well.
Isn't this kind of people, So Rare??


Ugh, we're still under barisan. Bus services are still as terrible as ever.

Last year I was frustrated. This time I'm frustrated.

If not for Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia, I did not have the need to waste RM13.90 on my Form 4 Sejarah (history) textbook.

I could have payed only 7 bucks, ya know.


I realized I hadn't much time left before mid-year exam, exactly when my history teacher announced that for this paper, all of form 4's , and 5 chapters of form 5.

Form 5 was rather interesting, I would forced myself to confess it.
And then I remembered clearly last year I was brave enough not to study history.
I roughly knew the content.

My book was kinda new, never flipped, and still posessed the new book smell.
It had no name on it, as I told myself, I could even sell this book as a brand new one after SPM.

Heh. Boy am I nasty.

History is not something boring. Ain't lying.

The only reason why I scored an A1 for the first monthly test this year because we were only tested on two chapters, which I found rather useful to know.


And about paying half the price for my form 4 textbook,
yes.

Some "FACTS" were repeating itself over and over again.
Over and over again.
Over and over again.
Over and over again.
Over and over again.
Over and over again.
Over and over again.
Over and over again.
Over and over again.
Over and over again.
Over and over again.


That is EXACTLY how it is.

I read one here, and I remembered clearly that it already appeared on the previous page.
I read one there, and there it is in the last paragraph. Having the exactly same meaning.

Are they really the real facts, I ask myself.

My dad says, no.

I believe so.

Well, for SPM, it is. :(








This world ain't fair before.

Now I know why they Leave Local U

oh. too bad. you lose. is that it?

So... its the first time in 50 years BN lost more than 1/3 of the Parliamentary seats.
And yeah, Selangor, Perak, Kedah, Penang, Kelantan.

Hmm.

I know I'm still kinda young to bother about all these politics.

Heh.

By the way, my mum have receive countless numbers of messages in her cell phone about all the politics, who not to vote for and their reasons for it. Some even come in fancy poems.

One part of it was something like this:
BN naik,
Banjir naik
Harga minyak naik
Itu tidak guna punya angkasawan pun naik

Oh well. I can't remember the whole thing. But it was worth quite a laugh.

The reasons for laughing at it is because corruption in the government has unanimously reach my school. I have no idea how but it has just grown over the years, you see.

I would appreciate it if the policemen out there would cut the rasuah and do their job properly.
I don't wanna get kidnap, rob, rape and whatever you see in the news - in my own city itself.

I would also appreciate it if the Kadet polis in the school can excel in what a policemen should do. I don't find them very discipline. One day when you glance down from 4th floor in city square and you somehow see a rainbow forming Below you, at the lower floor, I can bet that, its their hair. It forms the whole rainbow spectrum of colors.

Back to topic.
Johor will stay quite the same, unless the government decides to do something about it.
It certainly will be interesting to see what will happen in the years to come.



I was doing some light history on Germany and WWII against Poland. It was well, sad - to know how 60 million lost their lives. And I'm glad to know i'm not living in a war era.


My dad came to a conclusion, Malaysia is like this, its okay. Its not like we're getting bullied by Nazi's or Japanese or looked down and cheated by the British. But still, its not good just to stay okay. Everyone needs to buck up. Everyone needs Improvement. Advancement.

Someday, we will see this country stronger, eh?

Those Bias spoil OUR day.

I really really want to get out of Malaysia. Really Quick. And thank God i'm form 5, that means only one more year to endure.

Yea, its going to be a hard fight out there to be at the top, but - justly.

I don't know why, but those racial issues have reached dear infant jesus convent. When i thought it was only within the older people and politics, it have certainly reached our school. Through the older people of course, who else. Teachers are definitely older than us students, right?

It was tough work when china mens came in to do mining.

It was tough work when indians came in to do rubber taping.

It was tough work when we trained every recess, 120 students sacrificing their recess break, to get their marching done for this day. And yet. Results were awfully shocking. Ridiculous.

Many, cannot face the fact that little inter-house/units competitions can contain such bias.

St. Teresa's cheerleading's leader was stealing the show, and - yea. euck.

And I cannot stand the fact that those gerai outside selling drinks, dump their unsold drink on the road, and multitudes of limau rolling on the road, and cars squash them up and we get, a terribly 'clean' country.

But, salutes to those who are different. They are the ones pushing forward with the ones working hard. There need to be more of this kind of people.

We just want fair competition. That's all.

Maybe the teachers don't want us around. Seriously.
It's not even up in the school website.
http://www.ijconventjb.edu.my/curriculum.html

Do you fit the title of being champions?
Ask yourself, bozos.

Last year, why did the MC (obviously one of those who play in this mini politic game with students), announced the winner wrongly, then quickly changed it?

This year, they just decided to go with their damned plan.

Even my ex-senior said, this result was expected.

I.J. Convent JB is full of bias and rotten politics. Sorry to say that.

Thank God i'm form 5.




to my ex no.2, somehow, we feel proud of you.

Don't come and Haunt me.

Once I dreamed that you were not human, but a Ghost.

And that it's my duty to sent you home.

Don't come and Haunt me anymore, it's not worth it.

You're not landing you feet on earth anymore, you will remain floating.

Since you love that weird world of your own, no one will stop you from living in it.

They're just trying to get you back to normal.

Were you ever normal in the first place, that's a question.

All you know is how to create trouble, but never once fixing it.

We have already clean it all up, too late for you to fix it.

None can fix you.

Wanna get outta here.

Next time when I grow up, I'll make sure I'll stay somewhere better. Not somewhere like JB.

Yeah, I know I should be thankful because JB is apparently the biggest city to KL. (not too sure about Penang's ranking)

But it really sucks. This city could be much better. Really.

There's no proper concert halls for orchestras to play. Like poor MPYO had to squeeze on a small stage in the RTM auditorium with lousy acoustics. They played well, no doubt. But the hall sucks. I know the Esplanade is near. No one would bother to take a glance at JB's concert hall (if they Are gonna build one). At least a smaller, but proper one.

There's no proper entertainment hall like Max Pavilion in Singapore or Convention centre in KL. No bands will ever come to JB. Like Switchfoot.

They will hate the environment, no doubt. Like we hate it. The drug addicts and kidnappers and snatch thefts and rapist are so widely spread around this town. And the feeling of disgusting-ness when you enter JB from singpore. You know, the passport officers not doing their jobs instead joking around and playing with handphones and flirting with each other as thousands walk past them everyday. And then the pedestrian walkway, dirty and filthy, filled with beggars doing nothing but begging for money, the only pathetic escalator which operates so slowly (nothing compared to the MRT ones where its too fast causing people to have the drive to move faster every second) then the band of phony taxi drivers where they drive you to a nearby place and charging a very unreasonable price, or rather up the Tebrau highway and charging you a terrible bomb that blows a hole in  your pocket. They refuse to use meters. 90% of them.

Which stupid band would be daring enough to hold a concert in JB. None.

Meh. It's so disappointing. When I can easily get a ticket in holiday plaza - 10 minutes walk from my house.  But it's no use. The concert is in KL. And the ticket is half the price of the show in Singapore. Gahh. 

Don't mind don't mind. I'll catch the one in Singapore. At least I'm not like in Terengganu and is crazy over Switchfoot and have to take a flight to KL if I wanna catch their show =s

Quick. Escape.

Me in the Middle.

Yes, no, maybe
I don't know
Can you repeat the question?

You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now, and you're not so big
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now, and you're not so big

Life is unfair, so I just stare at the stain on the wall where
The TV'd been, but ever since we've moved in it's been empty

Why I, why I'm in this room
There is no point explaining
You're not the boss of me now, and you're not so big
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now, and you're not so big

Life is a test, and I confess
I like this mess I've made so far
Grade on a curve and you'll observe
I'm right below the horizon

Yes, no, maybe, I don't know
Can you repeat the question?

You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now, and you're not so big
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now, and you're not so big

You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now, and you're not so big
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now
You're not the boss of me now, and you're not so big

Life is unfair

Ahah.